MY SINCERE APOLOGY TO ALL
SUNDAY 24 MAY ……………..11:15
Today I attended a Virtual Meeting with the primary topic revolving around service to the fellowship of Alcoholics Anonymous.
I listened to some interesting shares during the meeting.
As usual, during the course of the shares, I posted on my personal video screen a variety of slides containing things like our 12 Traditions, Resentments, Definition of Alcoholism, importance of the Home Group, and other such pictures, all of which are intended to make a contribution to the meeting.
After about 30 minutes, I was notified that the Host had stopped my video, meaning that I had become immobilised and could not show my images on my personal video screen.
I privately texted the Host asking why?
I was informed by chat text that it was a group conscience decision made the previous week.
If that were the case, why was my video screen not frozen beforehand?
Why was I not politely requested to stop posting different images on the screen beforehand?
If requested, I would certainly have complied with the group conscience decision - if that had been the case.
Instead, I was abruptly stopped from using my video, which was an affront to my dignity and quite insulting.
I was after some time asked if I would like to share. I did share briefly, and my reaction was aggressive and damning.
This outburst certainly did me no good or to the serenity of those present.
Before leaving the meeting, I made my apologies for offending the members and abruptly left.
For those at the meeting who were offended by my outburst, please forgive me. I was not targeting my anger at you personally. I was reacting to the way I was being treated - not as an equal but as an individual whose contributions to the meeting were arbitrarily blocked by “AA police tactics”.
AA service is about doing something rather than being someone.
Again, I sincerely regret offending ANYONE today and ask you to forgive me if you are able to...................Doug